It's 4am in the morning and I'm wide awake. Thinking about life. Oh well not life exactly but more of the relationships I had.

Yea I had many. I'm only 19 and I had 6, none last longer than a year. Look at how terrible I am....

Maybe she's right, I really don't know how to manage my relationships

But I don't regret them. Beautiful memories. I love, I learnt, I grow. It makes me who I am today, it makes me a better person.

Okay sometimes I do regret, regret that we got into a relationship. Why, cause falling out of love makes it hard to be friends. It makes it awkward. I don't want to lose a friend just because we can't work out as lovers.

I can't call Feydric or Gershon out to "chill". Not that I'll mind, I'm pretty fine with it but I don't know about them. And I don't really want to be the one who takes the initiative, I don't know why. Yea I'm pretty weird.

I'm a wimp